13. Zola Jesus, “Soak”
Nika Rosa Danilova mentioned on NPR that she wrote the ominous track “Soak” from the perspective of a serial killer’s victim. “I started to do thought experiments of what it would feel like to be a killer’s victim. What would I feel in those last minutes before my life was taken from me? In this mindset, I felt so many conflicting emotions: resentment, empathy, masochism, grief. Channeling these emotions into ‘Soak’ made me step back and see how much it reflected my own journey trying to get through my darkest moments.” With her powerful voice she conveys that desperate yet resigned feeling to vividly, a vocal performance that haunted me for much of the year.